At 18 I met my now exwife when she was 24.So much happen in that time.For now I will make this short and put more time in this later.When we met she had a daughter who was 12 months old.Just like her Mom.I fell for her .I adopted her just a few months after we was married.I have always and always will,love her like she was my own blood line.A father is not the person who helped conceive but the person who is there for them.We had one more child in 1990,my son.....For now I'll just say the marriage was rocky.I caught her having affair and we divorced in 96..I can honestly say that I wasn't the best husband but I was always faithful heart,mind,and body.In the end I did all I could to keep us together.All I did was break down myself,I even kept the kids while she would go out and date(silly huh?).I was watching her one night putting on makeup to go out.She turned to me and asked'"How do I look?"I just said,"You look fine,hope you have a good time tonight".I would had done anything in this world to keep my family together.All my trying just made me colder.It is so sad when you look at someone and know that you don't love them no more.
It is odd but the best way I can describe this part of my life is all put in words by a song.Its Tina Turner's"I Don't wanna Fight No More".The words describe my feeling in the end.The words are.....
>There's a pale moon in the sky,the kind you make wishes on,Like the light in your eyes,the one I build my dreams upon.Its not there any longer.Something happened somewhere and we both know why but me I'm getting stronger,We must stop pretending,I can't live this lie.I don't care who is wrong or right,I really don't wanna fight no more.Let's just sleep on it tonight,I don't wanna fight no more.This time is letting go........I hear a whisper in the air,that simply don't bother me.Boy can't you see That I don't care or are you looking right through me.It seems to me that lately.You look at me the wrong way and I start to cry.Could it be that maybe,this crazy situation is the reason why.....I don't care who wrong or right,I don't want to fight no more.Don't care who to blame,I don't wanna fight no more.This time is letting go........Hanging on to the past.It just stands in our way.We have to grow for our love to last but we just grew apart.Oh don't wanna hurt no more but baby don't you know,no don't wanna hurt no more.Tired of all these games.This time I'm walking babe......